Next month i shall be having a Major operation on my stomach and so i shall be out of action in the bedroom department for a while.
This will be the first time in mine and T's nearly 2 year long relationship where we actually cant have sex and even though of course our relationship isn't about sex, sex is part of a healthy happy relationship.
so all of this has made me wonder how it will effect mine and T's relationship. T says it wont at all, that its not like I've imposed a sex ban but am actually not able to because of being unwell/recovering.
However me being a complete worry wort, is scared that T might go off me and or look else where. which of course he wont as his not some selfish sex mad bastard!
I however am just someone who always thinks of the worst and negatively and no matter of how much reassurance i get, i always have trouble accepting it.
T loves me a lot i think, i know i love him with all my heart and i don't know what i would do without him. as he makes me laugh everyday, gives the most amazing hugs I've ever had, enjoys and wants to spend time with me, likes shopping, lets me turn over the football when its on even though I'm at his flat and its his TV and that he wants us to get a flat and live together!
from the silly little things to the massive ones they all make me love, enjoy and want to be with T and i think and hope its the same for him, so yes i am being silly and worrying for nothing. Cos if we feel the same for each other i know i wouldn't go off him or look else where if it was him that was out of action.